Thistle an Thorn

The future

2009-08-02T10:35:00.002-05:00

Well the future is something to look forward to. At least I think. I got 6 months and then I'm joining Mag's in going to basic and eventually the army. I'm going to marry her and make her my wife. So should be an interesting year next year.

Oh, and in sad news my grandfather *My mom's dad* passed away this last week. He died suddenly and from a heartattack.

And, I'm going to start a few blogs. Think what I'm going to do is split it. Make a BDSM blog and a military blog. As a day to day type of thing. Should be interesting and well the crazyness should keep going!

Continuation of the last post

2009-07-19T22:40:00.003-05:00

I don't care if this is proper or not. If this is short and sweet or long and hard....don't care. Just know that I have to write this and get this off of my chest. So this is going to be probably one of thosel ong ones.

I had to continue from the last post because I thought she was taking the computer but she wasn't. I'm going to call her by her nick in r/t....mags. So as not to really let others know. Even though really the only people that have links to this is ...well the world wide web and the chatters I use to chat with. Not that many of them are still around. Seems like majority of them don't chat anymore. It's not that bad...I don't either.

Just nothing left in it for me. I'v had my fun on the net and I'v had my fun with chatting and playing with women over the net. I'v cybered for years and done all sorts of kinks and things. It's not that anymore. It's that I do want a girl. I want a girlfriend and a partner someone that I can be with and be with them as part of them. Mag's was that type of girl. Yeah she was brass and she was opinionated and in my mother's eyes a redneck hick but fuck her and her bullshit. She's the one that tried to kill herself and then come after me and tell me I was in the wrong. Which is bullshit and don't even get me started over the appology. Is that actually one or one to get close so I can do shit to her again................like she thinks it should be.

I know speaking in riddles and such. BAsically as soon as I found Mags and started working with her at Target and I found a friend. She was pissed. WE went to see Indiana Jones movie. Sucked but I got to flirt andhang out with her later that night. I soon met the mother and lets just say that I'm CHOOSING to be included I guess in this family. Even though I think everyone single one of them is fucked in the head. Her mother is a pyscho. I know too that I'm fixing to actually post her name on this blog and in turn anyone that puts her name in a search engine in a few months will hit on this. I don't care. This woman's nuts....her name is.....well actually I would love t odo that. Love ot actually post her name and in some turn fuck her over but well she's going to get what she craves. SHit she IS getting it. Which is the funnest part. She's getting exactly what she's dreading just to stupid and idiotic to see it for waht it is. Fucking paranoid schizo. That and if I actually post the name just be in turn something to do with Mags. And, that is stupid to do that.

I went to live with her and her mom after we started to get together. Things were falling apart at where I was. Grandpa and his lil group just wasn't getting along with mine. Plus my mom was always hounding me about money and working more. I was soon taken from AP to Cashier and well then became a workhorse. They don't care as long as you can pull rabbits out of your ass. Which sucks really. TArget it a sucky ass place and no one should go there. Besides take out the DVD's and electronics everything else is to HIGH to really get anything.

Moving in was wierd and strange. Her Mother and her was the strangest of all. This lady's like a cross between my mother and my grandmother. Yet something else entirely of life's creations. Soon it was hard. It was hard dealing with her because well.....it was different. My mom's world is all about restraint and about keeping people at arms lenght. Why she tried to off herself again. Actually this time she blamed other people. She even thinks to this very day people are trying to get at her. Yet, no one is. That is the thing. My mom's world is about alot of bullshit. About making yourself better and if you don't then she doesn't get you. Her world *Mags* world is really about opening up and letting people love you. Yet, there love would say is tanted with money and what it can get to you. It's love but love with money involved so it's really Tainted Love.

I wasn't really use to all that. It felt good and it felt awesome. To finally actually find someone that meant something to me. To feel something again. I'v never been good with showing things and or telling things actually how I feel. I do a DAMN good job at reflecting things. I can be a therapist/shrink in that matter. But, to actually say something that means something....well where I grew up you had to make it SOUND real. It didn't matter if it wasn't....it just had to SOUND. Don't know if I can explain that to person reading this. But, you had to make sure that when you said "Thank you" it even out to what was going on in my mother's mind. WHich I know burned a few bridges with people.

My grandfather probably doesn't like me or what I do. Which is fine. Like I say these people even the one's in Texarkana........they dont' mean anything. They are just people with titles because they are "blood". And people with titles they don't know me..nor do I know them. My own mother doesn't fully know me. She doesn't want to and I don't want her to. She tried to kill herself and it's really all Mag's doing on the saving her part. She is the one that made me go and look after her. One that helped me at the hospital to do what little bit I did before mom's family showed up and wanted to do there bit. Which is fine they want to take the job so be my guest. Just if you can really sit there and tell me Sheri, Cindy, And Annie that you can handle with talking to a Doctor about DNR and other nasty terms be my guest. No one else as far as I know had any experience. Which I did.....I did through my grandmother. Wasn't my first nor last rodeo when it comes to death and life.

I know I'm meandering and I'm fixin to text g/f that it's ready and she can post. I'm just blabbering really and not alot of it's about her. Tonight she left me and well is at her mom's. Not that I care and not that I care what she thinks...because I don't. I just want her back. I know that I made a mistake but I'v been fighting like hell these past few weeks to get her back. I want to find a job! And I want to prove to her I can take care of things. I know I can handle base and you being deployed maggie. I can handle that. I don't have a problem with it. I love you though and that is something I want to do...is be with you. I'm sorry that I made the mistake. It's just that I wanted to make it safe and keep it safe.

I guess what I want to say is this..........I know our life is hard...and it's tough and it sucks. It really does suck. But, I want to be with you and I'm willing to fight whom ever to get you back and to be back with you. I love you. I know that we have had some rocky starts and that my life is pretty crazy. Our lives meant. But, I do LOVE YOU!

okay here we go

2009-07-19T21:36:00.002-05:00

Just like the title says. Okay here we go. So I found a girl and I love her alot. She's been really good to me and I'v kinda failed in some areas. It was a bumpy and messy road to begin with. We had to deal with alot and well at times the bdsm was good and at times it wasn't. Some things got messed up. Like her cheating once. I don't know if that is really why I have been the way that I have been. Anyhow, shes going to take the comp. I'm going to lose internet again. Don't know when or if I'll beback. See all later.

HISTORIC DAY!

2008-11-04T22:50:00.001-06:00

So it's historic day! This is the day when we as people have given a black man the "power" of being the President. This is an awesome day. Would have been really cool to hear from JFK or Martin about this day but know it can't.

Anyhow, this is cool and I'm happy as hell that the Dems have taken back power of the government. I hope to that they are able to solve things and change things and that we have a stronger and better America.

GO OBAMA!

Just checking in

2008-11-03T09:32:00.002-06:00

Here I am again. At it yet again. I have no idea what to say other then I'm checking in. My life is pretty interesting at the moment. I'v been living with my g/f here in Austin with her mom for the past couple of months. It's been interesting to say the least. Her family is a bit gunho on the whole notion of family. It's just strange and foreign.

We've been together for 6 months now and are looking to add another to the relationship. We've been trying with one of my friends Kassandra but she doesn't really want to do this. It's just a big fight and a mess up really. All I did was ask a questino and she took the long way of answering it..and then stuck me with the blame and all.

Having an interesting time with finding work. I found a job just this past week and it's for security. I have no idea if I can actually pull this off. It's walking 2 miles ever 2 hours and standing up for as long as 12 hours. So it's going to be interesting that is for sure. But, I get a little over 2 grand for 2 weeks worth of work so it should help and then I can get doctor's appointments and the like.

For those that are actually still reading this and wondering yes have thought of actually opening up another room at sizzling. Or just another place in general. No clue what I'd do. Probably though bring back TnT. Was fun in the past and all.

Anyhow, that is me and what is going on with me!

Hello

2008-01-07T17:34:00.000-06:00

Just wanted to wish everyone a great new year! I'm going to at least try and write more. I'v stoped working as security and moved over to cashiering. I also was able to read 49 novels this past year. Will actually have a list up hopefully soon.I'm going to at least write once a week or try to. Write here I mean. So take care and while I'm still offline officially hopefully see more of me here at least!

LIfe and job

2007-10-30T12:16:00.000-05:00

So I have a new job. I'm working for Target. Turns out that Target first made a mistake and what not. So I had to redo it there. I nearly fell down at work the other day at HEB...it's a grocery store. My knee and legs were finally going to go out from under me.

On the other front my Mom may need surgery actually. So I don't know....although will say that I am going to be amazed by this if I can get out by Januarary and what not. If not maybe homeless..Me and my mom and all. So I don't know. Just know gotta work my ass off. Anyhow, anyone that is reading..hello and hopefully have had a kick ass day!

Got a job

2007-10-09T16:25:00.000-05:00

Hey,

I thought I would post and let everyone know that I have indeed got a job! Will be working at Target for a bit. It's not bad. 8.50 an hour so yeah me!

Austin and how things are

2007-10-03T12:15:00.000-05:00

So I finally made it to Austin. It took me 2 weeks but I am finally here and finally am getting acustomed to it. It's hotter then blazes down here. Seriously, feel like I'm in Florida or something. It's friggin hot!!!

I'v been searching and looking for work and it's been pretty slow at times. Although, I'm doing the best I can with what I can do so I can't really complain. So all is good. What else can I say? Oh, yeah I have one messed up crazy family! -laffs- Although, me and my mom were talking and it seems that just about every family is messed up. So I don't know what to say to that one ya know?

Also too if anyone reads this and does have info on some cool BDSM groups in and around Austin if they could let me know would be grateful. Thinking of checking out some of the real life groups and what not. Maybe even find a subbie and all. I really do miss that aspect of life for me.

Last night I was watching WE and they aired the Fetishism's episode. Wasn't bad. While last time I would say I had a problem with the slave girl this time it wasn't that bad. Just to say that I would never be THAT open. Also too still have a problem when she says that the people that hide or put away toys and don't let them out in the open are more "ashamed"...that wasn't cool. Anyhow, I'll post more later.

Take care and have a great week!

BDSM and Me

2007-09-10T17:52:00.000-05:00

So I must say that I am probably going through with a pretty bad withdrawl. I know that for the past few years as I have not been able to actually have an r/t situation...I'v been going online. Now that I'v lost online it's like my body and mind just really wants to just have a full week of nothing but playing and teasing.

Especially the subbie in me. Whom for some reason is really is out. Yet, I think that was just the beginning. Now it's a bit more of the Dom as well. Whatever the hell that means. I'm so sick and tired of being stuck where I am...and I SOOO badly want to try and get with someone and do the things I'm craving. Not just like going out and getting anyone but I want to say someone special.

Don't know if I'v mentioned this but I got news from Lisa and I'm sure this is somewhat effecting me. Knowing that I guess she was there even though it had been ages since we had seen one another and all. Yet, she's the first and only subbie and Domme I'v ever known. Losing her has definetly been a hard thing. Knowing that Mine and Mistress a woman whom really helped me is no longer Mine or Mistress well it sucks.

Also too probably add in grandmother's death. In some wierd way. It was Grandmother that wanted me to be more complient and I say tried and make me more subbie. Not in a sexual way....I'm not trying to say that at all but she was all about limiting myself and such....were as other's were about freeing me. I thought the subbie would go away once she did but I'm not feeling that. Still there and at times pretty crazy so.

So I'd say BDSM has made me pretty damn crazy. As has life. Oh, and I'm also hopefully the first of the year saying hi to B. As I maybe spending some time with her. Awesome!

Austin..here I come

2007-08-28T12:15:00.000-05:00

Hello everyone!

So I am well on my way to getting to Austin! It shouldn't be to much longer. One way or the other as I see it the end of this week I should be either heading there or there.

So this blog may become even more spotier in posts and what not. But, I should have some updates.

I know that some of you have seen that I am no longer with A/ak. This is true. I know longer have the room either. I don't know why as she's yet to explain or really tell me anything. Just that if someone or should she read this.....I hope that you two have a good life. I hope that he can give you what I could not and that it's better. It's been a long and very bumpy ride Anna...but I do wish you nothing but the good things in life. So with all of this said...I'm going! Take care everyone!

An update and well some thoughts

2007-08-07T11:14:00.000-05:00

Hello,

I don't know how many people actually here have been checking out the room. But, no longer a part of it. Why you may ask? I don't have a friggin clue. I asked and was never given really an answer. But, that is okay I'm not really sweating it. I'v had rooms gone in the past and bounced back.

Today's a pretty tough day. I'v been e-mailing with my ex. I had thought that now that things were now in the clear maybe me and her could get back together but it doesn't seem to be. She's found a new guy. Gawd, definetly seems like cupid's been having fun or some such ya know? So now I'm pretty much here trying to still get out of this house I can't stand and do away with crap and also try and come up with money so that I cna get back online and hang out with friends. Don't know how many of those I got but -shrugs- I bounce back lol. Seems like a running tag line in this.

I'v got one good thing and that is the fact that I can keep the dog's. I won't be losing my two palm's which is definetly good news. I like the annoying lil shits lol. They are awesome. Although, it seems my Aunt has let a wild and agressive pit bull join in her mix. Now the dog is getting territorial and what not and not getting along with Bruce. The other dog. He's a bull mastif. Anyhow, seems they want to put him in Grandpa's backyard. Which is where I'm heading to. I hope it doesn't happen. I'm pretty screwed if it does.

I don't really know what I'm going to be doing now. But, I know will bounce back. Just for those that are wanting to know if people are still interested TnT may live again. I don't know. Anyhow, hopefully take care..and just know that I'm hopeing to be out of here soon.

Hey just a note

2007-06-05T20:03:00.000-05:00

So I hope to be out of here in like a month or so. Hopefully. I'v been on a reading explosion so it seems. I'v had read 14 novels since my last post in March. That is alot of reading and alot of books lol. But, I'v had long nights with no internet and or decent tv. Basic tv sucks! -nods lots-. Anyhow, found out that they are indeed playing Farscape. It's a pretty cool show. Claudia Black is hot! Like the thigh highs. Anyhow, must run. Take care and if anyone wants to please leave a note if you want to!

An update

2007-03-20T12:46:00.001-05:00

My Grandmother actually never did come home. I had to re-admit her into the hospital once again that day. Yes, Matt is still gone and that is a good thing. But, my Grandmother passed away actually a few days later after the last post. I lost internet and just about everything else that I used the past 3 years as a haven.

There is alot of things going on and somethings I won't mention here over this blog. Somethings I may mention after I'v done them. I suspect that people were spying on me and if that is true then they have the addy to this blog...which could be used against but also could be to see what is going on.

I'm doing alot of things now. Basically, trying to keep what is my things as in my dad's things and get what I can of my grandmother's. Anyhow, take care everyone. This blog is basically not one of the high points right now when it comes to things. But, I will try and blog although I am on the go now almost all the time and there is TON's of things to do. Take care and I'll write again...hopefully soon.

An update

2007-03-20T12:46:00.000-05:00

Matt left and Grandmother is coming home

2007-02-18T15:00:00.000-06:00

Things have definetly been changing alot and definetly in a good way. Roomie left a few days ago. I'd woken up to the sound of the Taxi guy waiting on Matt. Seems he had left earlier then that. Probably around 4 or 5 that morning. Was a note in the livingroom area basically said "I'm out of here....Matt". So he's no longer here at the house and can't say I'm sadden. Although, I do know one thing he's already in New York and probably freezing his ass off. Oh well.

This Thursday Grandmother is coming home. I'v been trying to find some of the things and what not but that is sometimes challenging. As there still a few things I can't find and no clue where they are. Matt loved to take and do with things and put things where he felt it was "cleaner". Yet, never did get that he couldn't do that. Well...he never cared.

I'v been staying in and pretty much trying to survive on what little money we have. I only got a few more dollars. Just enough to get more gas since I'll be picking Grand up in the mustang.

Also been trying to get Grandmother hooked up with Home Health. Trying to find out what I have to do to get someone in here and help stay here through the day. So that I could go and get some money working and what not. That would really be able to help us out.

Let's see what else I'v been doing. Well I'v been watching a Ton of films and what not. I found at the library a few days ago a spanish tv show. It's the first season. It was originally aired in Argentina and then aired on HBO latino. I'm hopeing this is good. Heard it was like Seven and Silence of the Lamb's combined. I like those type of films.

I got The Departed. While I don't think it's all that great I do think it's twisted and turny and can be exciting and great. So yeah. Hopefully he finally gets his Oscar award. The man deserves it. Just that he doesn't make films for family's. Who cares think he should get it. Not that many people out there have had the impact like him.

Oh and just letting everyone know. We will be having a Battlestar Gallactica season finale party! It will be the night that the last Battlestar show for this season airs. Thank god they got picked up for a season 4. I hope this week's episode is a good one. Seems BSG has it's weeks where it's really great and then they get side tracked and it's not that great. I don't know.

Finally ROME is indeed going off the air after this season. The Guy that plays Vorenus he is now apart of a new either fantasy show for CBS or ABC, and or NBC. Can't really remember. Sad too because this show is Awesome!

Oh yes and I'm keeping Showtime! L word is awesome. I love how this season is going and it's finally paying off. We had a pretty slow start to this season but now things are really coming in and it's great to see.

So anyhow, that is what I'v been doing and what been watching. Over all that is what is going on!

Matt....life and porn and hospital

2007-02-11T18:00:00.000-06:00

The above sum's up really what I have been going through here in the last few days. My Grandmother has been in and out of the hospital over the past week. She didn't even make it 12 hours after she got out last night..or should say the other night.

I just found alchohol bottles and porn. Seem's Matt has a thing for barely legal type porn. That kinda bothers me is the fact that this porn is trying to make it seem that they are under age or barely legal type stuff. -shakes My head-. No wonder we'v had the fights that we have had....he's drinking again. Also too come to find out he's pretty much been into every drawer and nook and cranny of this house. What for? I don't have a clue. This guy's really gotta go.

I just wanted to pop on and leave a post. I know not been around for a while but well..not really felt up to it. With Grand and the hospital and coming here and with Matt..it's alot.

2007-02-07T08:34:00.001-06:00

I can finally say that my Grandmother went to the hospital, and also I can say now that I haven't been fighting any where near as bad with Matt *The roomate* at anytime before this one. He just is there at every turn every curve in the bend he is there to annoy or try and get you to take things at his own word and do it like that. It's either that or the highway. Well the highway's looking very, very good. My Grandmother is hopefully going to recover. They are just concern though about her heart and breathing. As that was what was the problem. So I think we shall see. If by tomorrow she's not out it should be interesting. Oh, and I do have a question for those that read this blog......when you are driving down the street is the left lane the "passing lane" and when you turn you always go to the middle lane even with the dote's on the road telling you not to? I'm just wondering. Roomie almost got us into an accident the other day doing that. I don't fully know if I can combat him anytime I'v ever tried to restrain or get a hold of him generally puts Grandmother on edge and there is even more fighting. But, this morning I woke up at 5:15 to him putting my cloths up in a dirty hamper. I know they are dirty but he went ahead after I told him not to clean them. Dumbass. It's just the fact that they are there, and need to be cleaned that is the story of the whole thing. The fact that each time I put a dish in the sink and don't immediatly clean it or we don't immediatly go through food and so we keep it for a few days *A few days in his world is 6 months. And, he should know..he smokes while I do dishes and run the kitchen. So he would Always be in the know* and then that is one day to long. I guess with him if you don't eat it there during dinner toss it all out.I'm sorry just alot of things going on and mainly it is him. I can handle this and do alot of this shit that has to be done but I don't need him giving me time tables and I don't need him hounding me to do things his way right then and there. He's not my father. This guy's is a combination of Don, Mom and Grandad. 3 people that at the height of there crazyness were pretty bad to handle even just as themselves. Let alone when they teamed up on you. When they teamed up on you...you were just fucked.He probably should just pack his things and head back to New York. And, one last thing always sticks his noise in my buisness and watches what I do and nit picks. He still expects everyone to be up and awake by 6:00 am. I'm not only exhausted as the mood says I'm pissed....and angry and tired.

bloody hell it's cold

2007-02-02T13:07:00.000-06:00

So we have had freezing weather again! Just fun! How well can anyone say that? So it's now back to being cold, and we had some freezing rain in the area. It shouldn't be this cold for this long. Damn global weather. I picked up and am starting to read A Game of Thrones by George R R Martin. It's got a lot of character's and what not but it's alot of fun. Pretty addictive as well. Although no telling how far I'll get into the novel. The library won't let me re-check it out so I put it on hold again. I'll hopefully get the same back so know what page and all by writting it down. Be a bit harder if I was got the hardback instead.Haven't really been watching tv. Although, after the football game will be watching Battlestar so -sticks tounge out-. Last week's was a very good episode.I'm now on the verge of just shutting down the blogger account that I have and just using this one. I like it as it's more about community and such. And, so far it's BS proof. I'v had all sorts of problems over there. Bad, google, bad google!So that is my post for today. Will post back on what is going on probably in a few more days!

Prestige and Flags of the Father review

2007-02-02T13:04:00.000-06:00

Prestige is really cool. I LOVED the ending to this movie. The last twist. I'm going to probably rent the dvd once it comes out and see if I can piece it all together. But, that is such a wicked idea to do. Nice rollar coaster ride. Flag's...what to say about Flags. well I kinda liked it. I didn't think it was all that it most likely should have been. Although, I'm sure if I see Letter's to Ima Jiwa I'm going to see the other half. So with out seeing the other part I'd say Flag's is good. Although we have seen these type of shots as far as handling camera's. You know the hand held cam's used in Saving? Got it here. Although there are good performances..the man that is the indian in the picture? Don't know the actor's name *Which is a first lol* he has a good performances. Ryan has a good performance. It's the other guy that really doesn't. So all in all it's good but nothing that raving. Also too I can understand why the Oscar's skipped this one. It's not really Oscar Oscar.

Ahh idiots

2007-01-27T17:33:00.000-06:00

I was cruising the other day around youtube. I came across a man that is for the Christian right. He says that he is a former homosexual, and that now he's a straight man. I don't know if this guy is for real or not. I found this one video which I'll have on the blog soon. I don't know if I should be angry or upset or if this is a joke and we should laffing. I found this over at pam's house blend. I don't know. It's just fucked up really. But, I love the list of bands with this one! Yeah eminem yep he's fronting a "okay homosexual" agenda. Yeah right! Come on! Look I'm one that has been listening to eminem since his first album but I don't think he's helping the cause at all. And, he also has listed Frank Sinatra?!! How the hell does he help the Gay Cause? I'm sorry but I think of swing and my grandmother's type of music on this one.

I just think this guy's either a comic or he's truelly messed in the head. Oh, and gotta love that Chop's lol. He's stupid

link

Enjoying the day!

2007-01-26T17:25:00.000-06:00

It's such a blah day. It's not even funny. Just really am out of it, and I know I shouldn't be. Since its coming up to dinner time have to figure out what I am going to fix and honestly I don't know. Probably be one of those nights where you fend for yourself. Because, I'm not very much up to it.

Other news we got back the van the other day. That was soooo much fun. Roomie left the wheelchair in the van and he knew it was there. Dumbass I swear. And, the air breather for Grand was left in there as well. So it took a really long time. I will say this it was funny as hell seeing my roomate who is like 6 foot something cram into the back of the mustang. OMG that was funny. He took up the whole lenght of the back. Was really squished back there. We have back the van and it's running really great. He was shocked at how much it is. I don't think he gets that we had to pay 40,000 something in cold cash up front and then I think 20 or something more on top of that. It's got all the bells and whistle's. We drive expensive Ford vehicles.

I know I have to read a bit more when it comes to the novel. But, I will be able to do that. The satalite is out in my bedroom so no L Word. They won't be able to be here till Tuesday, and it's not like I'm going to have Grand watching L word. Neither doubt she'd watch HBO's Rome. They turned off the channels sometime the past day and forgot to leave HBO so had to get that solved. Basically, today was a lazy, blah nothing really happening day.

Oh, although do want to leave this here. If there are any Battlestar Gallactica fan's...please let me know. We are thinking of having a season finale party in the chatroom over at sizzlingchat! :) Will be a blast!

Morning!

2007-01-23T10:41:00.000-06:00

So we have had our first sunshine since the storm the other day. That wasn't much fun at all, and in fact kinda sucked. I was glad though for the sun to finally come out the other day. Although right now it's cloudy. :( Ahhhh, just wish to have like a full week of nothing but sun, this is kinda reminding me of Indiana during the winter months. Where it's cloudy and not very good at all. Plus the weather being cold although there it's a hell of alot colder.

Once again am typing this from the library. Go figure. The amount of posts made from this place is slowly increasing. Ehhh, I guess why not? I'm in no real rush as I have to go to the store to get Grand's drugs here in a bit so I'm knocking off time and what not before have to do that.

I'm setting myself a goal. Yep, I am, and it's going to be one of trying to read 12 books this year. I'v gotten a bit slow and well not fully reading them like I once was. So I thought 12 would be a good number. Since that is about adverage I should say. Starting out with Running with the Demon by Terry Brook's and then I'm jumping over to Games of Thrones by GRRM. Thought I would get a leg up on this series since HBO is bringing it to there station as a tv show. Should be very wicked.

Speaking of tv I watched Battlestar last night. Awesome episode, and I'm left wondering. Is Starbucks a cylon or is she going to be the one that is going to find earth? During the marathon last week they ran this promo about "One is going to find out they are a cylon (Inter cut shot of I think Baltar coming out of the machine that they have the cylon's come out of) and one will die while another will find earth". It's interesting, and what is really interesting is if they are going to find earth then how is that going to play out? Will this be even more trouble for them in the coming seasons? I don't nor do I expect Battlestar to be running on forever. Probably not past season 6. Basic extended channel shows don't typically make it to the 10 year mark. Unlike Stargate and Sopranos. Yet, Soprano's is going away this year.

I shall say that Dresden Files is interesting. Although, it was okay as far as a pilot goes. Hopefully, they do pick it up a bit in the coming episode. L Word has gotten off once again and it's a slow start to the season. I figure maybe they are taking there time. Although, this past episode with the Lesbian/Straight party? Now that was hilarious!!! You could tell they were going to make that into a train wreck! I haven't seen the second showing of ROME. I'm going to try and see that sometime this week. With Verinus chopping off the head of the one gang guy seems like he's going to take over that area. So what will that intail for him?

Grrrrrr, why does all my shows have to be on Sunday nights man?!!! What is it the new Must See? It would be kick ass if they showed them during the day time. Daytime tv for the most part sucks lol. Anyhow, I'm out of here. Will post and yack later!

Messing up Blogger

2007-01-19T17:03:00.000-06:00

Blogger's messing up. I don't know what is going on. The service seems to keep going in and out. No telling when it'll go out. Started about 15 min's ago. I got another account to another place. So maybe moving over there. IT's just crazy. Am kinda tired of all this hick ups.

100th post..and interesting news!

2007-01-19T15:43:00.000-06:00

US government wants bloggers to registerSilent majority must become knownBy Nick Farrell: Thursday 18 January 2007, 07:38THE US GOVERNMENT is planning to force bloggers who criticise Congress and organise grassroot causes to register themselves or face jail time.According to GrassrootsFreedom.com, under Section 220 of S. 1, the lobbying reform bill currently before the Senate, bloggers who have more than 500 readers will have to register and report quarterly to Congress just like lobbiests or go to jail.GrassrootsFreedom.com chairman Richard Viguerie said the new law would create the most expansive intrusion on First Amendment rights ever.The amendment was introduced by Senator David Vitter and is currently on hold as it seems to have got bogged down in the legislative process. It would be interesting to find a bog that is read by more than 500 people.http://www.grassrootsfreedom.com/gw3/articles-home/articles.php?action=view&CMSArticleID=398&CMSCategoryID=24

hmmm I haven't even reached those numbers at all in the four months I'v had mine. Going now on 5. I pull in people but doesn't mean they are going to respond. You can get a lot of people to see the blog and what not. That isn't a problem. Actually once again I'm back being viewed by European's lol.Politician's hate Bloggers and for the most part that is true. They were even blamed for "hacking" onto some politician's web site. When it was the fact that the host he was using pulled his site because was using to much bandwidth or something like that. I thought that was funny.So if you are read by 500 people? Is that in a day? Or at a months time? Does this mean you have to pay a lump sum at once or just once a month? Becuase, people are pretty fickle when it comes to this. You can be hot for a few months and yet be dead the next week.Like what was said above just because you can do it and the Chinese did it doesn't mean it's going to be as simple as doing it here in America. Internet's a very hard thing to actually govern. People don't want the child porn but when you get into topics and area's such as this it's not easy. And, what if they arn't American Citizen's? How are you going to find that out? What if it's someone in England or Russia? It's not as cut and dry. Or, will this just be for American's or those using American servers? The Servers that are on American soil? Because I don't have a problem going to England for server space. I don't have a problem at all. That solves that problem. IT's much like the whole thing they got to "get rid" of the American porn. Only 10 percent actually use server's here in America. Still be there just make it so that it's all out of country. Politician's are very behind the curve when it comes to the Internet.

Blogger and well storms...again

2007-01-18T19:41:00.000-06:00

So we maybe in for round 3. Which is great. The Texdot people that take care of the roads and what not are running out of there special sand and all that good stuff. Luckly I have movies and enough food so no real reason to get out. On top of that I'm actually parked in the driveway. So isn't like it's like I can go out there and drive away. Especially if it's icy, I'd cause a car accident lol.

Blogger seems to be doing something. I don't know it's not always showing but it's not just my blog. It' the other blogs I have links for so I'm guessing it's some form of maintnance. Tonight will finally get the sleep I need and actually maybe sleep through the night finally. That would be nice.

Oh, and as of this post I will need one more! And, shall hit the 100th! Post! Will have to think of something really good for that post. Maybe a trip down memory lane. Although, don't think we have really clocked in that much in the first 100 posts. More of finding out what this spot in the internet is going to be all about. Which isn't really bad though.

it's snowing and I feel like crap

2007-01-17T07:36:00.000-06:00

-points to the title- that is exactly how it is and what it's like here in Dallas. For some reason the storm that was due in a few days is here earlier. God will be happy when all this crap goes away. I got out and did somethings that needed to happen since it was okay and figured today we could at least get somethings done. I guess not anymore since it's snowing and it's already ground coverings..and doesn't look like its' going to stop anytime soon. I'm heading back to bed by the way.

If I'm around I'm around if not..then okay. Just know am here. :)

Blah day.

2007-01-15T08:21:00.000-06:00

I have been having a fun morning. This morning started pretty early. It was hot and I just couldn't really sleep. So I decided to start and wash the cloths. Then I went out and checked on the cars, and I found out that they just arn't working. The mustang's frozen so badly it's stuck. The door's won't open, and even on the driver side I can't get the key to unlock it so I think it's frozen inside or something. Who knows.

The Van is out of commish. It's gone. The engine is something wrong with it. I'm so sick though of being the only person inside this house though of 2 people *Including myself* that can go out and do things and what not. Yet, with him he does it his way or no way. You either put up with it or not. And, well I'm sick of what he does and doesn't do. He doesn't listen but it just sucks and is annoying. Because, then everything falls to me. And, I do alot as it is. The dumb ass goes around and says things behind my back. Hopefully once it warms up the Van will work. So if something happens were calling ambulance. Got nothing else to use really.

I'v been taking a peek at the site meter. It's pretty cool. Seems I'v been added a site I don't remember being added to. I don't mind actually lol. It's brought alot of people here. Although, I'm listed as a male subbie even though says S/switch. So am I to them more subbie then Dominant? As of the recent days I can understand and would say that this is true. dawson side of myself has been having a lot of fun. Has gotten further along than anytime ever before.

A/ak maybe actually is going to be able to have her bill payed and what not. So that is good. After that maybe can get things going again and handle and what not. I hope she's able to stay online. Even though things arn't what they once were between us....I hope she and I can be something though.

I'm not worried about things though that much. Mainly because today is BATTLESTAR GALLACTICA! marathan on sci-fi channel! -dances.- I get the catch the two episodes I haven't seen lol. They are showing all of the first part of the first season today. Which is good because I didn't see all of them. And, on the 27th? It comes back on the air. Which I'll be watching. Be Dresdin Files, Battlestar Gallactica, L Word and either later that night re-airing of Rome or some time during the week see it.

The past few days have gotten through first season of Rome. If you get a chance check it out. It's awesome!

Rain and ice and fun lol

2007-01-13T12:07:00.000-06:00

So just like the title says that is what is going to be heading my way. In fact we in the North Dallas area are under it for all weekend. Till 6 am monday morning. So this will be alot of fun.

It's freaky my backyard the part of the yard closes to the porch is like a small lake. Honestly, if we keep this up during the day time of continuing rain and such wouldn't be shocked to find the creeks flooded out completely.

With the freezing which the freezing line is close could mean we lose power. Although, I believe here everything is really running under ground. So hopefully that won't happen. If it does yikes. Won't be alot of fun that is for sure.

Anyhow, take care and if anyone's looking for me and can't find me. It's the storm.

Dreary ramblin day

2007-01-12T10:13:00.000-06:00

So it's been raining all day. What a shock right? Had the satalite man come out and fix or at least attempt to fix the satalite. Seems we need a new box and I learned something new too. IT takes dozen's of satalites out in space to give me the channels that I have. Oh, well at least we are staying and 90 percent of my shows come on at least more then one other time. So I can always catch them.

I'm typing this actually as I sit here in the library. Shocked they will even let me onto this dang thing. So what should talk about? Oh, if didn't know seems luck and me with A/ak isn't going out to well. She has till the 16th and still no money has shown up. So we are getting short on time and no money. Seems for some acidnine reason money from out of state doesn't reach her exactly when it should. Which sucks and isn't my fault. So guess we are back at square one. If she loses the net will lose the account and probably have to go at a higher rate since she is still paying the old, old payments. Ahhhhh this is such a nightmare. Really is. I don't want to see her go offline and I know that she truelly feels for me and cares about me.

Even though all the things that happened with MBE and company. And, how nuts it got there for a time. I know I care for her too but don't know if it's the same as her's and well I know she's scared, she's really scared.

I figured this week would go and get hair cut and go look for a job. It can't be just any old thing. I still have to take care of Grandmother. Thank god for the Dem's on raising minimum wages. :) :) :) Ahhh take that big buisness right wingers.

I caught an interesting thing over on FOX news this morning. Seems Bill O'Riley is really against those on the View. They had said that umm Trumps show was going into it's 6th season and that it was doing better then what it has actually been said. Oh well won't be the first time the guys lied and won't be the last. Although, you know he's attacking and bitching about how MSNBC is all for the Left side. No chit! Really!!! And, it's not at all like FOX news is for the Republican's out there. Even though they still have that slant it use to be so bad the President could send them a box of his own shit and they would worship it. So he really should look at his own show and the network at large before he starts going on and jumping people.

Anyhow, that is it. Take care and stay in from the rain. Going to be raining and storming this weekend. Monday and Tuesday expecting highs of 20's. Yikes!

Good morning

2007-01-10T23:48:00.000-06:00

So good morning. I know that for some that know me through the chat site and the room yes me and A/ak are talking once more. Hopefully, things will be getting better. Although, she is set to lose her online status as of today. Maybe we can have that changed here soon.

Roomie's leaving. He told Grandmother last night that he was going. Which is good. God knows it's been a battle since he came back from the Christmas break. The thing is now though I have to get a job which is tricky because of Grandmother and the fact that she's sick and what not. That and she's pretty scared. We also need the extra 200 a month. So hopefully can find at least a good job here soon. Is going to try and find one in the coming days.

Lets see what else is going on? Oh, seems a friend of the family can't actually tell her son no. He is going to start growing pot in her house. Oh, and this is such great and wonderful news. The State has already gotten her for taking care of kids. They did this years ago and yet she still takes care of them. But, if they find the weed she's going away for a while. Depending on how much is there. I'm staying away from that place that is for sure.

So Cybil Shepard has joined The L Word. It's a tv show on Showtime. I watched the fourth season permere and she wasn't in it. I'm thinking she's going to be in the next one. She's suppost to take a shinning and liking to Alice. Should be interesting. Sorry it's melodrama sure but there some really hot women. That and I think Rachel Shelly *Whom plays Helena* and Katherine Moenning *Shane* are both very interesting actress's. That and Rachel Shelly's hot. I can say that she's married in real life. Katherine don't have a clue.

I don't know if this post really has much value over all. I'm just making it to make it I would say. I would say it's more of an update. I don't know if I'm going to be able to get the board or what not going. I'm definetly no matter what going to have the room going and all that. Other then that? I don't know much.

Feel that people as far as online and the things I do with online are going to be coming either to a close of some sorts or slowing down. With the Roomate leaving I'm definetly going to have to go and take care of things now. Also means will be doing things in and outside of the house. Oh the fun. Anyhow, take care and have a good day!

I found out what lesbian thinks of Mary Cheney. She's the one that had the baby. Anyhow, I thought this was funny and well amusing. And, I can definetly say I don't blame her for being upset and angry. Check out this link.A/ak will be able to stay online. At least till the 16th. Hopefully can get money and what not together and should be better and good. Oh and wish me luck. I'm going out and finding a job starting tomorrow sometime. Get hair cut is the first step. It needs to be shorter here then if I was in Indiana.

It's in it's entirty here.All I can say is that this better be it. I don't know if I'm fully with this or not. But, I know and can say that we can't and shouldn't limit funding. That is really going to bite us in the ass somewhere. Yet, we should do something.Although, I want to say this didn't the President seem Tired and just drained. I'v never seen him before like that. Generally he's so cocky and gungho now it's more like "ehhh want to blow up something...ehh go ahead". Jeez this really has taken a toll. Can see it.

edit- I combined the three posts in this one.

The President's speech.

2007-01-10T23:44:00.000-06:00

It's in it's entirty here.

All I can say is that this better be it. I don't know if I'm fully with this or not. But, I know and can say that we can't and shouldn't limit funding. That is really going to bite us in the ass somewhere. Yet, we should do something.

Although, I want to say this didn't the President seem Tired and just drained. I'v never seen him before like that. Generally he's so cocky and gungho now it's more like "ehhh want to blow up something...ehh go ahead". Jeez this really has taken a toll. Can see it.

So I found out

2007-01-10T22:18:00.000-06:00

I found out what lesbian thinks of Mary Cheney. She's the one that had the baby. Anyhow, I thought this was funny and well amusing. And, I can definetly say I don't blame her for being upset and angry. Check out this link.

A/ak will be able to stay online. At least till the 16th. Hopefully can get money and what not together and should be better and good. Oh and wish me luck. I'm going out and finding a job starting tomorrow sometime. Get hair cut is the first step. It needs to be shorter here then if I was in Indiana.

Good news/ Bad news

2007-01-02T03:18:00.000-06:00

There is definetly some good news to be mentioned on this early, early morning! Me and Anna have been chatting for the better part of the past 2 days. My thoughts of what was going on was true. Seems to that MBE and company much don't like us.

I may even be getting some bad rubish that I'v actually mentioned his name on this blog since I'v put the links on sizzlingchat and in the boards I attend and am member of. I don't see much harm in it really. I could get even nastier but ahhhhh something about the smart ass in me just won't let me. That and it's 3 in the morning and well he knows don't like him.

So this snake as I'm called is going to continue on. Will we become a couple? Will we stay one? I don't have the foggiest idea really. Just know that we are talking and taking it slow, and also I don't care this is my own place to say whatever I want. People can read or they can go to some other place.

Okay so the good news is done. It's REALLY great news too btw. But, now on to the bad news.

My roomate is coming back. Gawd, it's been so calm and so peaceful. My dog's have done like a 360. I can't wait to get hands on 200 a month so I can kick his ass out the door and then he'll be Alice's problem.

Me and Gran hhad both been talking about how nice it was and about how we could eat. I kid you not he can go through half a bread or a full loaf in less then 24-48 hours and majority of the food in this house is eatten by him.

I was watching this show called 30 days. It's from the guy who did the doc of eatting mc. donald's for 30 days. It has a tv spin off and one of the inmates said "you can tell on if a person if a convict or not. Because, convicts eat like someone's going to take there food away from them." And, that is exactly how he eats.

So yeah peace and tranquility and not all the high strung will soon end. :(.

Although in a few days my mom will be here!!!! So that will be good.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-01-01T00:00:00.000-06:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

I just wanted to say happy new year! Before I went to bed. Take care!

Will make a thread about hopefully what will happen in the new year!

What will say on A/angelkitty

2006-12-31T16:43:00.000-06:00

I will say this when it comes to A/angelkitty I don't know fully what is going on. Now I have my own thoughts and opinions but this blog's link is out there in the world. So I shall keep them to myself till well can at least talk or maybe hear from her.

Just know that I have and am in no way affiliated or with her room or the rooms of MBE, and Master Devon and or lynne. Those people may come and view this and that is there choice. May even get an account and post to this blog. Feel free to. Although if I erase or do away with that is my call. Same as things that are there own.

But, Me and Anna are no longer together. As far as I'm concerend and this is really jaked up and messed up. I don't know how exactly one post on a message board got me here but it did. Have a good life though Anna. You deserve one and don't let that crowd dictate or intinmadate you in staying or keeping into things don't want to.

Have a good day! HAPPY NEW YEARS!.

Doesn't this make ya sick?

2006-12-29T02:12:00.000-06:00

Link to Story.

So someone steals toys' for kids that don't really have the standard family? That is just wrong. I mean I get that it's a "christian" holiday but for me and I think majority of people it's really a child holiday. It's when lil kids get toys and they get all the gifts and such. Which isn't bad nor wrong. There plus and minises but still. It's little kids! Why taking away a childs toy? Just wrong.

Merry Christmas and happy new year!

2006-12-28T22:22:00.000-06:00

So I guess should say happy new year and MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Thing definetly did pick up around here a bit more. Taking on more things that involve with the house. I almost got a job but since the Roomate, Matt can't totally handle helping out more then he does *He takes out the trash and that is about it* I didn't take it.

So many things are definetly coming in the new year. Some new things and interesting things I know will definetly be able to chat and talk about.

I guess as a quick update can say that I'm looking into college and maybe even being an RN. Gawd help anyone that I have under my care. Nahh. It'll be fine.

So will chat and talk later! Take care!

Childhood flashbacks

2006-12-13T22:35:00.000-06:00

YEAH! I remember growing up with these guys lmao. It looks pretty cool though. Have to give it that. Looks cool. Looks kinda dark. But, this is so awesome.

I use to sit around after I was through with karate classes and use to watch this cartoon. Use to have the backpacks and all. I think my Grandmother still has it. I dont' know this is just total kid reliving all that. Good times.

Trailer

Cheney's daughter preggie

2006-12-09T22:25:00.000-06:00

Click Me

Congrats although I always did find this to be at least somewhat strange. Kinda like playing with the enemy. I mean Bush and Cheny and that whole group seems to be really against the Gay and Lesbian's. Now one of them actually gets pregnant. This should really, really be blowing away the conservatives. It's like they really don't think of gays and lesbian's using science to get pregnant.

Now what can this whole group say? That this is morally wrong and not what should be happening? Also too can you imagine being connected to Bush and all through your father? That must be pretty hard for her as well as well...having a dad that even if he does approve has a guy that would probably lock her away in prison or in some mental institution.

Snow and life

2006-12-01T06:55:00.000-06:00

So there is snow outside my door. Yes, it can snow in Texas. It's actually suppost to get even colder down around the teens today. Which I'm really not looking forward to.Also too I can't go and get the things at the library which would definetly help out today since nothing on tv during the day times. Oh, well. Will have to wait I would think to get the book and tv show.

I was talking with A/angelkitty earlier today, or I guess I should say earlier tonight. Seems we just arn't getting along and well clcking well at all. I know that she wants me to move out and all but it's not as simple as that. I don't know. I don't know much of anything anymore or really what I am doing. Although, do plan on making some money after the new year once start hiring and such. Which reminds me need to contact see if Tom Thumb's is hiring. Ahhh the mundane things in life.

Seems like everything is kinda coming in right now. Real times a bit better although not that much. I think roomate has finally started listening to me.There was a few weeks there when it was like talking to a doornobe. Trying to tell him some of the things and what not and try and correct. Which is easy to stop..but he just didn't want to.

Now I'm not to sure about online and such. Isn't that many I actually talk to or even communicate with. I use to have a really great board going and now that is gone and done. It's been dead for over a year now or just about a year. I don't know how to start that back up. I miss my co-admin syrabeth. That was our doing the board. We started that when she was leaving chatemporium as a designer. So opened it up and did that.

The room's dead too but each time I'v tried to start things or something back up it's not happening. Not happening because something between me or real life or just something happens. I don't know. I know too that this is the most open I'v been and don't know if those that I'v talked about will be happy posting in here but I don't really care much anymore. Going to just say it. Need to and don't really have anyone to say to.

I don't think I'v said this but ..or maybe I have. Can't really remember and it's really early or as such late for me. But, my Grandmother has ocpd. Which isn't good although she's better. She's fully walking around the house and all. Even preparing meals again. I have to help out somewhat. It's not that bad but could be better. Guess so use trying to just survive...don't know about the future at all.

Anyhow, merry Christmas and happy holidays!

2006-12-01T02:07:00.002-06:00

BDSM Talk 4.5

bdsm video

2006-12-01T02:07:00.001-06:00

what makes a submissive tick in a scene..

talk 4

2006-12-01T02:07:00.000-06:00

bdsm talk 4

beta? and to the bdsm videos

2006-12-01T01:32:00.000-06:00

I'm just wondering if Beta's worth the switch over? Is it? I don't know. Will definetly be checking into it more. As I think would be nice to post things and not for the whole bloody world.

edit- Well Itried it. It's alot of work and alot of real bullshit really to try and get this thing to go over. I wonder where the simple things....they just don't make gmail or any form of google accounts easy do they? Always gotta be the hardest way. And, people love google? haahaaa.

Now on to the videos. I am going to slowly but surely post more and more of alyssium's videos. And, as well I think every third vid I'm going to post kinda my thoughts and opinion's. So should be fun :).

snow!

2006-11-30T16:43:00.000-06:00

Wow. So we have snow and ice coming this way pretty much as we speak. And, lots of it. I don't know when or if I'll be online a whole lot. I'm thinking I will be. So long as the internet connection isn't severed. It's alot of ice and snow coming here. If it does get bad it'll shut down the city. Dallas Texas has had snow before but were not used to alot of snow and this is almost 5 inche's each of the stuff. Anyhow, just saying if I'm gone that is why. I'll try and be back as soon as I can. Take care and try and stay safe if you'r in this things path. It's a huge storm btw. So I may not be the only one dealing with it.I need to get to the store before they close. We are definetly going to need food. TAke care gang

talk 3

2006-11-26T15:50:00.001-06:00

BDSM talk 3

talk 2

2006-11-26T15:50:00.000-06:00

BDSM talk 2

talk 1

2006-11-26T15:48:00.000-06:00

bdsm talk #1

Here is the first one in the whole set :). Will post a few a day.

Hello

2006-11-26T06:47:00.000-06:00

Well as we move closer and closer to the 100 post and such I can't help but look back on these post and really say that this is more of a diary. I know when I started this thing that it would probably be a big collection of not only BDSM but of other things i like and do care for.

So I haven't recently put down what I have been doing in real time. Or, for those new to the term real time..it's meaning real life. Outside of the digital world. I'v learned how to cook. I did that for almost 2 months. Gran has just started feeling like cooking. That was fun..no not really. I now understand though why my mom didn't like cooking there for a while. It's tiring. Fun, but tiring.

I also vaccum and take care of the dogs. She's gotten a bit worse there for a while. On oxygen..pretty much on that 24 hours a day. That is doctor orders. She has OCPD. Which basically is from smoking. It tears at your lungs and such. Also been handling my roomate who is in his 70's and thinks he knows all. He drives me nuts.

I'v also realized that my days of not having a job are definetly slowly coming to an end. I'm going to have to do something. It's getting tighter and tighter each month.

Didn't go to thanksgiving dinner out at the Ranch this year. It's pretty boring and they really do completly ignore Grandmother and well if I didn't have Taylor whom is suprisingly like myself..i'ts a wonder. Especially, since Chris who is a year younger then me and we grew up together is a full fledge opposite of me. He dresses like a cowboy and chews tobacco..is pretty much a hick. Always has these huge belt buckles. it's like he's trying to make up for something he lacks in that area. Also the fact her wears tight jeans..it's like no wonder he's trying to make up for it lol.

Anyhow, that is pretty much an update and seeing how things are going here. I thought or do have an entry conserning bdsm coming up. So stay tuned :).

2006-11-23T20:01:00.000-06:00

Saw 3

lol this is pretty cool.

2006-11-23T05:38:00.000-06:00

Very Funny Commercial

Found another one lmao

2006-11-23T05:37:00.000-06:00

Banned Commercial -

LMFAO I love this comercial lol.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

2006-11-23T04:07:00.000-06:00

I just thought I would leave a note and say happy thanksgiving! And, also go Cowboys :) :) :). lol.

Definetly happy thanksgiving! May you have fun and great times with family and friends this year.

Echo Park by Michal Connely

2006-11-22T22:54:00.000-06:00

I just wanted to come by and actually post something that is of interest. I'v been reading alot that I must admit but I'v found a hell of a mystery writer. Michal Connely's Echo Park is the 12th in a series of novels.

Now I know what your saying. Saying that it's not up to par and that the series is dull. If this is the 12? This series does have some more stories left. It's awesome.

This time Harry Bosch has always had a case that he wasn't able to solve. Now it appears that there is a chance. Seems that they have caught the killer and yet something isn't right. It's when the killer slips away that Harry questions people in the department and those around him.

While the novel isn't totally new it's very well written and alot of the characters I'm told come into contact with Harry are actually from other novels. But, that doesn't really matter nor is it as if it's a gimick. It's an awesome read.

Also too it feels very, very real. Which is nice to finally find when alot of people are just using gimmick type of characters. Harry Bosch rawks!

http://www.amazon.com/Echo-Harry-Bosch-Michael-Connelly/dp/0316734950/sr=8-1/qid=1164332149/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/102-1748539-8029709?ie=UTF8&s=books

What is going on?

2006-11-22T17:09:00.000-06:00

So I know that I haven't been on this blog in a truelly long time. As, well life has really been getting in the way. Dealing with somethings with my girl Anna. Also dealing with my Grandmother. She's now on oxygen and my roomate can't stand it. He thinks and just KNOWS that she's abusing it and getting high. Dumbass. But, yes, and also taking care of this house. Now though she's getting better and feeling better. So hopefully that will be something that is better and means can at least post here.

Oh, and happy THANKSGIVING! I also want to say go COWBOYS! :)

Tatooe play set

2006-11-22T17:07:00.000-06:00

Why not help them set up their own tattoo parlor?This one is pain-free, so no need to have the kids get plastered before getting inked.Be sure to read the customer comments if you visit the site.

I love the comments that people have. I wonder what they would think and all from the fact that people and tat's are becoming more popular. They are definetly not as taboo.

daybreak

2006-11-16T23:04:00.000-06:00

So how many here actually watched daybreak? I'm just wondering I did. It's actually not bad of a show. FAR, FAR, FAR from Tru Calling. This is more action and I'd say more bang then a Tru Calling show ever was.If don't know the plot of the story. Seems Tay Digg's character is sleeping with his ex-partners...ex-wife. Who's very attractive. He wakes up each morning and is re-living the day that he "killed" the cities District Attorny. His new partner is well being looked in on by IA. Which if you don't know what IA is..it's internal affairs. Basically, they are cops that police the cops. not well liked among the cops at all.There is alot of handheld type camera's and alot of shooting. They showed the first two hours of the show last night and ther was alot of action in it. Plus it's very wierd and strange as your trying to figure things out.A few scenes were kinda shown over again of course. Since he wouldn't bump in or physically see his partner we get to see the IA meeting that she's to have later that day over again. Yet, the second time or third time we see it there different parts and also it does reveal a bit more about what is going on concerning the partner. And, it does look like she's a dirty cop.What was a really interesting idea is that if he bruses himself and or gets shot *the second episode he is shot and actually bleed out in bed* it crosses over. Exactly like would had he actually been able to live the next day. Which instead of Groundhog's day where he killed himself by putting the toaster plugged into the wall into the bathroom tub...I don't think we can do that here. Think if he's dead..he's dead. Which is nice to have in place of a show. Means there really is still a threat, and he's not superman.I think you can watch these episodes starting tomorrow on there website. If you can check it out. It's not that bad of a show and looks like a fun kinda wierd, strange action oriented show.And, for any LOST fan's don't worry it comes back after this show wraps up. Whic is in 11 weeks

3lb's

2006-11-15T23:01:00.000-06:00

So I watched the show tonight. It premiered. It's a pretty interesting show. Could have been a bit better but I liked it and will definetly be giving this show a few more weeks to check it out. Probably run's on a 12 week total for the first season *Grins*. The length I like lol.

a kinda summery on it-

It comes on after The Unit tomorrow night. Umm it's about a man that is brought in under a internship to basically learn how to be a better Doctor. Except, this guy *Stanly Tucci's character* isn't very conventional at all. So it seems it's like how he has to deal with all that and the fact that this show the 3 pounds? That is how much your brain weighs. So it's talking about the mystery that is the brain. It seems pretty cool.

CSI effect

2006-11-13T23:05:00.000-06:00

http://www.knoxstudio.com/shns/story.cfm?pk=CSISCIENCE-02-20-05&cat=AADefinetly check out the link. It goe smore into it. Science is great and yes makes it harder to actually get away with murder and such but our lab's and such are poorly underfunded and in crappy places.

Dem's pull through

2006-11-08T23:08:00.000-06:00

Wow. So I sat up last night till about 1 or 2 watching the results. I was bouncing from Comedy Centrel to MSNBC. Ummmm all I can say is Wow. Middle America went Democrat. Although my own state didn't go that way sadly. Have to get them next time -nods lots-. But, amazing night for Dem's. I take this as good news for election year in 08. Maybe finally we can have a Dem President.

Haggard admits

2006-11-05T23:07:00.000-06:00

Finally he admits. This just proves that all those people that scream and shout and rant and rave about the "Morality" and "evilness" of gay people.....are the biggest freaks in America.http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15536263/

Kerry and the joke

2006-11-02T23:06:00.000-06:00

That was stupid. Really was. He botched the joke and then of course people have to run with it. Because, anything that is even remotly or can be attached to bashing troops...is what they will use.When ever Carl Rove if he wasn't the Presiden'ts right hand man would have been attacking the President as a moron. I guess they couldn't either handle nor take the fact that Kerry was calling him an idiot. Which is what he is. Let him be that country bumpkin. Fine. As a person that has been around country folk my whole life he gives them a bad name.

I'M BACK!

2006-10-30T08:49:00.000-06:00

Okay,

So I'm finally back. Now probably wondering why a month later I'm sitting here posting and telling everyone what is going on? Right? Well my Grandmother is actually getting worse so I basically spend a very large time with her through out the day.

Then take on the fact that the roomie and the two of us haven't exactly been seeing eye to eye. So alot of things that are happening in r/t that isn't that great nor good.

But, I am back and will keep posting about life, bdsm and any other thing I want to say or rant about lol.

Christopher Nolan

2006-10-23T23:13:00.000-05:00

I am a movie buff and the name if anyone actually recognizes is the director of Batman Begins and the forthcoming sequal. I was wondering if anyone's actually seen his films other then Batman?He is more Noir type of a director. The other films are Following, Memento, and Insomnia. That is the one where Al Pacino can't get any sleep and is a cop hunting down Robin Williams who killed a girl. I have seen following and it's pretty awesome. It's a really interesting film and it's black and white. Also if you can't take british accents maybe skip that one. It's shot in London where he is from and took a year to shoot actually.Memento is one of the most original and daring films have seen in a long time. The set up is that this man can't remember short term memory. So each day he doesn't remember where he is, or anything like that. Yet, he remembers who he is and that his wife has been murdered. The dizzying thing and the most awesome thing is that it's a story told backwards in 10 min intervels. Oh and also has two people from the Matrix in it. While you already know the ending to the thriller it's still very interesting to watch and have to pay very close attention. But, even after you'v seen it first it still holds up to multiple viewings.With the new movie Prestige. Which I will definetly be checking out. And, word is it's his new masterpiece. I was just wondering if anyone's actually catched and taken a peek at some of Nolan's other works besides Batman. I think and this is just me but I think he's going to be an interesting director who makes really great and interesting films.

Six Feet Under

2006-10-20T23:10:00.000-05:00

Just wondering if any of you have seen this show? It's on Bravo I believe once a night or maybe nightly. Not to sure. But, this show's really great. It's awesome.Basically the idea of the show is that this family is gathering for Christmas and they own mortician. The father of the family ends up dieing. It's awesome and really interesting. Kinda dark, and yet unique. Really great show. Comes from HBO and was one of there main shows. But, now Bravo is showing them. Probably edited a bit to fit the 14. I'v watched all of disc one on dvd which is 3 episodes and there really great. So definetly check out the show.Oh and this fall edited lol...Soprano's is coming to A&E. And their final season or the finish of the season begins next year on HBO.

WTH?

2006-10-15T23:16:00.000-05:00

http://abcnews.go.com/Politics/story?id=2564929&page=1So bashing and screaming out that "We should do something with the homosexual's...since they are at fault for the Foley scandel". Yet, you have close ties to homosexuals? Whattah?!!! If you have close ties then you'd know that not all homosexual's pray after your lil kids and that that has nothing to do with any alternative lifestyle. Idiots, and hypocrits. But, it keeps them in office because if they can get the Christian's yelling and screaming about morality and sin and God's love..AND his Damnation they get votes. -laffs- Someone's getting played and they don't even know it. Sad truelly is.Although it's great news for those that don't want to see legislation against Gay's and any other real group. So keep it up . Keep shouting and reaising all of hell...and keep up with the double standards. Sleep with them while your at it. That will be nice political sabatoge.

American Gods by Neil Gamen

2006-10-13T23:18:00.000-05:00

Has anyone checked out this novel?To put it at short it's a novel that is about the God's of old fighting the new Gods that American's have kinda created. It's an interesting and awesome novel. Definetly check this out. Oh, and definetly check out Neverwhere. Neil Gaimen's an interesting fantasy writer.

Review for Miami Vice

2006-10-06T23:17:00.000-05:00

Okay so I saw this last week. I saw this with another film. I went online to see what alot of people thought. I think the first thing people thought was that this is going to be like the tv series. After all you have Mann who is the director of this film as the producer. But, that isn't the case. This film is alot like his work in general. Very close to real life and kinda how it is. He doesn't use that many lines with characters and such. So when they are speaking it does mean things. Also I noticed the beginning the cop speak. Well he has always just tossed people into the films and you either snk or swim.This films a very dark and very violent movie. It doesn't totally explain everything. While it's not like Heat or Collateral which to me is Tom Cruise's best role I'v ever seen him do it does shine. Vice is a film about temptation an about slipping in and what it's like to be an undercover. These guys go about there job as if they are actors. It's a good film that doesn't live up to his other crime films Vice is still pretty cool. I think though it's where he tried to really show what it's like to be an undercover and they don't have alot of character development and so don't totally know who these guys are. Where as with Heat and Collateral those are two films that are character studys. That is what those films are. Heat is the big operamatic film that I love over Collateral but I do love Collateral and seeing how these guys lives are crossed and how they both come from different worlds.So what I'm saying? Give it a shot. It is a strong R rated film. This isn't for kids. Although Mann's R rated movies tend to not be. But, in this one it's dark and it's violent. Also too if haven't seen Heat or Collateral go pick those up. They are awesome. Especially, Heat. Heat's the one where Al Pacino is a cop and trying to find the Bank Rober. It's kinda by the books both films in some respects but it's in the characters that make the film.

Tired

2006-09-20T05:44:00.000-05:00

I'm so tired. There is so much work to be done in this house and that is just maintaining this house the way that it is. Also, having to take care of my grandmother. The only thing Matt does is sit on his ass in his room or take the dog's outside and him smoking. He even leaves the dogs out there for hours on end and wont' let them inside.

I'v just about had enough. I don't know what to do. He could help out every so often. Well can't say everything is bad he at least fixed dinner one night and nothing bad happened from it.

This Norton may go out here in 2 days or well tomorrow. Don't know if we have the money so may have to re-new next month. So probably won't be online that much here. I don't want to catch anything that I can't get rid of. I hate XP. I'm going to get a 98 so that way I don't have everyone after me with viruses. I figure I'll just stay one or two model's below the newer system.

See all later!

Been awhile

2006-09-17T03:38:00.000-05:00

Yes, I'm fully aware that it's been a while since I have posted. My blogger account didn't like me signing in here for a while now. Guess it finally behaved enough for me to do sign in.

So I guess should get you caught up in what is going on. My grandmother finally went to the doctors. Basically, they really can't do anything for her, besides hand her these pills. If that helps then good, but if it doesn't then she's just simply have to live with it. Now that came from her God doctor's. My grandmother has God people. These people speak the holy bible of there proffessions and to go against or whatever isn't allowed. So pretty much won't be a second opinion. Fits with her age group.

Been trying to maintain my house and not let it get back to what it was but damn it if that is a bitch. It's a bitch to do because of roomie. Had to clean out the dishes all of 'em today and the thing was loaded. He's as bad as a teenager. I don't know how he could not have seen the mess. Probably did it in the dark. He loves fumbling about in the dark.

Have been working on adding in the new RP for the room. It's going to be pretty awesome. Will give a quick overview of it here soon. I think it'll be fun to have r/p nights in the room here and there. Especially, since I can't afford two rooms. But, that is going to be cool. If anyone's looking for av's do check out the proboard. Other then that nothing else much going on. Take care :).

Imagine

2006-09-11T10:53:00.000-05:00

So it's 9/11. Don't know much of what to say or really to do. So I thought I would post this song. I don't have much of the answers and I don't know where the hell we screwed up in all of this. Although, I'm pretty sure somewhere along the line we did screw up.

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Ahhh back and posting at last

2006-09-09T05:00:00.000-05:00

I don't know really what all has been going on in the blogshere or really internet. I'v only been online two times in the past four or five days. My mom just left and is heading back to Austin as we speak.

It was a pretty good little get together. We sat and chatted and also well cleaned up this house. Which is pretty much stuck on September 4th, 1994. I say that because that is the day my Dad died in this house. He died of a heart attack. That is when I call the hell years pretty much started.

I'v never known that my grandmother has alot of things through the years. Some of it probably could be taken out but I don't know if she is really willing. We did get alot of the house though picked up. Although it still needs work. Still needs some pretty major work. This room I'm in now the game room is in dire need of attention too. Which is why she's going to come back in 2 weeks and stay a week. Which hopefully I can and will be able to post something.

Haven't slept much even though my body is tired from working and cleaning up alot. I don't think any of us actually have. My grandmother's still in pretty bad shape. Can't breath as well as she once could.

Yes, there is alot of things that have happened and I'll definetly get to those. Just not at this very moment. Probably in daylight time will do. Till the mean time take care and have a good day.

Not Dead

2006-09-04T02:02:00.000-05:00

So I'm not dead. Just so everyone knows. This is really just a small entry tonight...or really this morning.

My mom comes in a few hours or later today. She's going to be in town I think for a few days. Probably two considering where she is staying *With Me* and the fact that my Grandmother is here..won't stay that long.

So this should be pretty fun. I hope not though. I hope everything is okay with her and that everything does go smoother and better then before. We'll see though. So I'll be offline for those that read and have me on IM or know me in the rooms and such. Take care and see all later.

Good afternoon

2006-08-31T17:12:00.000-05:00

Finally got some rain over the past few days. I think the grass outside loves it. More green then the comman dead brown look. Which is so fashionable lol.

Spent the past few days signing up with a few more groups and directory's. So will see if some coming in and hopefully commenting. It's nice to see those that do. This is true.

Tonight is the last scrimage game for the Cowboys. :) So I'll definetly be watching the game. If any are Cowboy fan's will tell who won later.

Oh, and I thought this was pretty hilarious check this out. It's hilarious. She's a "Proper Lady"? hmmm right. It's a doll. A very unrealistic doll. Gotta love that whole thing. Take care.

Rainy Days

2006-08-28T17:43:00.000-05:00

Grrr that is definetly what I have to say about the internet and this blogger sign in. Something just really doesn't like me at all. It's like it doesn't want me to log in and post on my blog. But! I love to blog. It's alot of fun. Hopefully, will start to behave more.

Finally, we are getting some rain. Thank god. Here in Dallas definetly need it. Think we are 20 something feet below where we should be. Ahh, gotta love that global warming. Speaking of rain and weather seems we have another Hurrican coming in. My Aunt and such are over there in Florida. Pretty much if they leave they leave. It's kinda a melow thing. Although, the good news is looks like it's going to be a catagory 1 or 2. So not that bad.

I went to the library today. Picked up "Blogging for Dummies" so I'll know more about this and also how to maybe blog for more people and such. We are definetly getting people here now just to get the comment or see if that can be done. Don't know really.

Fucking Cocksucker...Deadwood

2006-08-28T02:28:00.000-05:00

Welcome to Deadwood. Where the law don't exist and if you piss the fuck off someone you'r fucking ass is a dead man. Watch out for Al he don't particularly enjoy fucking cocksuckers as much as the next guy.

Yes, as you can tell Deadwood's definetly not your adverage show. It's not. No way in hell would Deadwood survive in a basic show. To much language. Just about each line has a fuck, or cocksucker, some other word. Yet, it was like a Shakespearen play on crack. It was how the language and the words andsuch flew and yet also how the cussing sliped into it so effectivly. Also too I'd say alot of the characters were fucking pissed the fuck off half the goddamn time.

As of tonight the show is technically over. And, for that I'm saddened by it. I was a late commer to Deadwood. I had a copy of season one and finally watched it. Was great. It's grimmy and it's dirty and how it turns on it's self. The first season is awesome. Ian the man who plays Al Sweargen steal's the show. Very few times have we seen a character like Al. A man that is hard on the outside and yet actually does care for people. Although, if you get into his buisness or his way he'd rather just kill you then work with you.

So I guess this is really my post to Deadwood. A show that was awesome and great to watch. That had great writting and great acting. I do hope though that HBO does make those 2 2 hour films. Deadwood deserves it.

Hello

2006-08-27T15:30:00.000-05:00

Just wanting to say hello. I know never fully went into I guess what would be my reply to the abuse and rape that is comman in the bdsm lifestyle. I will later. Today seems we have alot of rain and storm's around the Dallas area. Thank god, we could use some. Also too am trying out the e-mail to post feature that blogger offers to there members. Oh, do have some more exciting news going on. Some event's that will be happening on the room. A few events coming up and the re-start of auction on the designer board.Basically, getting things going again.

2006-08-26T14:23:00.000-05:00

BDSM talk 16

It's very comman. Actually, talk more about this here in a bit.

You know

2006-08-26T14:08:00.000-05:00

You know sometimes you run into people online and in life that definetly are for the different side of what you believe. I help run the Enchanted Element *The link is on the link section of this blog.* and we had a member named Voltage come and when he did pretty much spewed Republican, and Christian remarks. This is a guy that knows the talk and walks the walk.

Anyhow, he got into a hiffy and left. Now he's back and yet again see us opposing one another. He gets mad if I mention or try and come up with thoughts that go against his. Should be interesting when he finds a post that I'm Alternative -grins-. Should be alot of fun then.

I don't know just there some conservatives out there that no matter what the heck you tell them they just keep going at it. He keeps saying names and messing with people and such. Putting in remarks and all.

It's just really gotten underneath and kinda is bothering me to a certain extent. What I guess the really good question is why is it that he's on the board or that coming around a board that isn't hardcore Christian. None of the other people are. In fact they are pagan and wiccan and other religions and thoughts. Ahhhhhh, no clue.

Sometimes I wonder how much more polorized are we going to become? I remember back in the last election people were almost ready to die and kill one another all because "gays and lesbian's are evil" and the other side is "evil".

This is just another question and I don't really know what really this post is about. I'll see all later, have a good day.

Ideas

2006-08-26T01:10:00.000-05:00

I was just wondering if anyone else has had ideas and such coming inside of there head and yet you forget about them sooner or later. I really should sometimes try and keep track of a few things want to say about BDSM for this blog. Since really it is a place to be a kinda sounding board on a few things.

Which I will say I don't know everything about. I know that but neither does the next guy. No one knows everything about bdsm. Which is what I think makesi t so cool and special. That the mental side is really deep and wonderful. You'r constantly growing which isn't that a part of life?

So I think we have come up with a thought about what we were going to do for the discussion we are planning. At least I am. It's about to be about orgasm control/and orgasm denial. Also too hopefully I can save the convo and either put it on the site master I have for the room or put it all here for your reading consumption. But, will eventually have all the info and the dates and such.

Children and BDSM

2006-08-25T13:05:00.000-05:00

I was watching this one show last night on some channel. God knows what it was, anyhow, they had this show over women and women's fetishes. Was really interesting. Basically, they had this one that had a canabilism fetish. Where she dressed up as if she was a turky or some sorts and then basted. Was interesting and I think kinda cool listening. The other woman had a BDSM relationship and a guy on the side that was her Master. Then lastly there was a Pony Mistress. She enjoyed pony play as well as BDSM and being a Domme.

Now that I'v got that all out. I'd say that where is the line between being BDSM and then where the children come in? What I noticed though was that the situation that the family and such are left in by the slave isn't exactly something I'd want to have. She has her Master and that is great. Yet, her family is in turmoil and alot of stress...so it seemed. This could be because of editing and such I know this.

So what can I say about children and BDSM? Realize that if you have a girl/guy that has a child and they are in the household that they live there too rather you want it or not. The child came with the submissive and as such should be respected. If you treat the person harshly you'r slapping you'r partner in the face. No matter what role, that also goes for those that are Vanilla minded as well.

What me and Lisa did was just act like boyfriend/girlfriend. We didn't fool around or play or any real bdsm aspects with the kid around. That worked for us. The toy's were put up yet the child did know that I was her Mom's Master and that she served me. She knew about it and also that her mom was just wierd in general. She took it well and great. We had alot of fun messing with her I think about that.

I think it's important to make the child know that the parent is okay, and that they arn't being harmed. Also that open up lines of communication and keeping them open. Also I wouldn't do nor involve the child in that aspect in anyway shape or form. That goes with out being said but I said it anyway. But, think about it would you want to hear your Mom/Dad crying out in pleasure from taking a flogging? Can you say ewwwwww lol.

So basically keep an open dialog with the kid/children and also be mindful of what you do when you do do it. Also if you are adding in rules and such do it slowly and if the child is picking up on it or something like that slow down for a bit. Take care and have fun, and stay safe!

Alyssium

2006-08-25T12:53:00.000-05:00

http://youtube.com/profile_videos?user=alyssium

The link above is to the video's as the girl that is in the video below. She does know what she's talking about and is actually pretty awesome. Am also going to maybe reply or talk about some of the things she's bringing up and or elaborating? Who knows. Do know have a few ideas for some entry's and definetly will be posting here.

BDSM talk 13.25

2006-08-24T18:42:00.000-05:00

BDSM Talk 13.25

Couldn't have said this any better. This subbie is actually really great. Will be posting a link to her vid's and also see if she agree to maybe showing more of her vids.

The "Invicible" Chastity Belt

2006-08-24T10:49:00.000-05:00

Guess people are wondering what the "invicible" thing actually is? Well the answer to that is actually orgasm control. It's where a submissive has learned and allowed herself to cum only when the dominant wishes it. It's a fun and really great thing I'v been able to do with the women that I have had as mine.

I would say that the most connected on this I have been with is Lisa. I remember one day we were talking about things and how that even if she wanted to couldn't cum. She actually showed me later that day. I'd brought her a vibe and had her play and tease herself with the vibe. Each time you think she was about to cum she'd get closer and closer and closer and yet wouldn't cum. I couldn't help but laugh because it was humerous but also really arousing to see that she'd given herself so much for me and that she couldn't cum. After a while I just said "Cum" and she did, and she came hard.

Those reading this entry and wondering how do I get my submissive to actually be like this? Well, that depends on really what you want. Some take it so that the submissive can't even get wet with out verbal okay by the dominant. That really isn't for me. I love teasing her and tormenting her and then slipping a hand down to feel her wetness.

When it comes down to it it's really up to the submissive. They have to really allow this and be comfortable in doing this. What I'v done though is just keep as a rule that they have to ask to cum. If not they are punished and they know this. With Lisa's case it was something so natural she'd always asked or I had her beg *grins* but either way it was always me telling her it was okay.

As we kept going and taking this she took it to the final level I believe. Through our love and really care for one another. But, she didn't conciously do that. It was sub-concious and also a bit of behavioral modification. Alot of this is behavioral modification. Anyhow, enjoy and hopefully have alot of fun with orgasm control.

Oral Sex not Dom? huh?

2006-08-23T18:49:00.000-05:00

I was going through some of the blog's on other people's blog lists and I found one where it was talking about oral sex on a submissive and that a Dominant wouldn't do this for it wouldn't be Domly. I'm a bit in shock. Eatting out a girl as they say is fun and great and wonderful.

Besides when you think about it her/him laying back aroused and wanting it....how isn't that a subbie act? By them giving oral it's also a form of teasing and pleasure.

I just thought that was hilarious and funny. Sorry, just to me it's more like your insecure. Which alot of guys are. There isn't a book that can say "hey this is what you do big guy". Plus anything kinda like that is like talking about penis sizes.

Also if she/he enjoys that you can use that to toy and tease them, which is a way to put them into a submissive state and get them ready for you. So really it's just another tool that a dominant can use on their lil one.

Changes and Problems

2006-08-23T12:59:00.000-05:00

Blogger doesn't seem to want or didn't want to see me get into the blog area so can post. Gave me a challenge today. Wierd. Hopefully, it's just a glitch that isn't going to cause me more problem. Especially since they don't have the page that could help me with what they said was the problem. Yeah, that is always nice.

So that is really the problem. The changes can be found over in the link's and blog groups area. Yes, I did add the Nationl Coalition for Lesbian's mainly because to help them out on same sex marriage. As anyone can tell I'm for it.

Also have a few more entries that I think will be interesting. Oh, and if anyone wishes to leave me questions or has a problem can contact me at aaronfurq20@hotmail.com. I'm thinking of having days once a week were answer questions and such. Can ask anything, yet I do reserve the right to not answer. Take care.

Lots of things

2006-08-22T22:43:00.000-05:00

There are alot of things at least here recently been going on. I recieved a few days ago an e-mail from my first real love. She e-mailed to say that the link to this blog didn't work and that she wasn't in the best of conditions as well. At least she said why wasn't online. She has a very, very bad back and things like that just isn't ever a good thing. Her joint's also hurting her.

That and the fact it's my half brother's anniversary of his death has made me think on my life. I never knew him at all. He was found murdered, after he was coming home from a bar. It happened here in Dallas area and not been solved. I know one thing though I'm an Uncle lol.

Part of me feels torn; I want to so much get ona Greyhound and go to Lisa *that is my first love* and take care of her and look after her. I know it's only her and Cheyenne her daughter. I just...just want to be there for her. Guess can say that even though it definetly didn't end as I think we both wanted, and really in honesty neither of us wanted it to end. Still want to be there for her. I know she's scared of not having someone there and then add old timer's on top of that as her greatest fear, just makes me want to be there more for her.

I know too that me going back and leaving will effect and hurt A/ak as well. She wouldn't get to hear from me and not really spend time online with me at all. As that isn't guaranteed with Lisa. I'm sure it'd be money wise what it was and barely surviving. Which am pretty use to. I don't know just alot going through my head.

On a good note it rainned here :).

Spankings

2006-08-22T12:55:00.000-05:00

I think out of all the fetishes I do have this has to be one of the most favorite one's. Why exactly that is....is well...is because it's so nice feeling a warm body over the knee and giving them a spank. Hearing and seeing there reaction.

But, what leads me to this entry is why is that so erotic. And, why is it that when you add panties or underwear down at your ankles the arousal double's sometimes..tripling in pleasure?

I think alot of people enjoy this and also enjoy being spanked by numerous things. I know I enjoy using the paddle or flogger. As well as recieving a spanking from these said things.

Anyhow, gotta love the intense feeling.

Cell full review

2006-08-20T19:20:00.000-05:00

So I just finished Cell by Steven King. What can I say? It is nice to see him back in and doing horror. Although, I wouldn't really say that this book is really a great horror story. It is an interesting and horrific idea.

I did like the beginning and how it started out but as a few of the characters died and such just wasn't totally into it at all. But, if your new to King and or haven't read Stand or don't mind that it's a bit like Stand go ahead and check it out. I do give thumbs up. Listley's Story is due out I believe in October. Already have a hold on that one :).

Poly

2006-08-20T10:21:00.000-05:00

I know I'v touched on this in previous posts. Some I think a bit more in depth then the others. Other's..well I'm not to sure. Anyhow, it's not that bad really.

What is poly may ask? It's where one has more then one partner. Yes, the Morman's did have multiple wives. Although it has sense been outlawed by the Morman Church. It's just the off shoots that actually still participate in it. Is there some control? I'm sure there is. But, there are bad people in every group. Just different degress.

I remember though with Lisa who at the time wasn't yet really in touch with her dominant part of herself that much, she said it would be fine if I found someone online to help. Had we have known someone in r/t I know she wouldn't have minded it. Yet, we weren't involved with the real time community. While I was playing I didn't really have any true relationships with people. Yet, Lisa and I came to both feel that we couldn't be harmed and that no one could tear our relationship apart. So agreed that if there were other's and such that could play.

So I guess personally it has come into that from me and her. I know that A/ak at times doesn't feel to right with it. Not to sure with things and I don't force it and it's just an idea doesn't ever have to happen. Although great if it does and yet okay if it doesn't. But, does Poly interest me yes.

Although, we have just recently come into agreement that we won't collar anyone and yet play and get to know them. Which I think will be fun and great. So I guess back into the Poly world.

Is it bad though at times when you do find someone and find a lover to maybe look for another? Is that normal? Is it wrong? I don't know and I think that it's something am battling and not even to sure with myself about these feelings and why am this way. I don't know...just thought why not make an entry over poly and what is going on.

Take care and have a good day.

Partial Review for Cell

2006-08-19T14:36:00.000-05:00

I know...I know I'm not totally through with the book but I wanted to chat about it and also put some thoughts. I'll come with a more rounded out review later.

Just in case no one knew this is the new novel by Stephen King. Yes, it's a horror novel. Finally he returns back to horror and I think it's much better. It's pretty much a juiced up horror novel which I think we do crave from King. He's alot freer I think since he has finished the Dark Tower. Also this has nothing to do with the Dark Tower Series. Which I saw one review on amazon sad and disappointed. Which I'm not. Dark Tower is through and over with. Time to move on.

Cell basically opens up right smack dab into the middle of the chaos. Pretty much a "Pulse" comes and erases the minds of the people who are talking on there cell phones. Some have said that he's a technophobe. I think other wise. Mainly, because think about it. The Cellphone is something we all have and we use all the time. So what if someone could do something to the phones. Which opens up to Terrorism and 9/11. I'd say this is alot like War of the Worlds and it's handling with Communism.

Anyhow, if you like Zombie films and novels about Zombies you'll love this one. It's pretty awesome. Pretty much a very pulse pounding novel. Even though there are alot of times thinking and feeling that it's kinda like another King novel called The Stand.

I know been a while

2006-08-19T08:47:00.000-05:00

I know that it's been a while since I'v last posted. Sorry about that. I don't know really what to say or what to really put as an entry. Although, really I'v been fine and life is good. Nothing really bad is going on.

It's once again hotter then 100 outside. Dang. I hope we have a very, very, very mild winter. We deserve it. Take care everyone!

Sore

2006-08-16T12:06:00.000-05:00

So I'v been trying to get more fit and yeah that is always alot of fun. Which sadly isn't. I woke up this morning with sore legs and sore arms. I'v been running for the past few days. I'll do running later tonight it's up past the 100's again. Damn, hate this heat.

Other then that I don't know really what else has been going on. I found out a friend of mine's father has passed away. Hopefully, she'll get my note. I hope at least. Haven't talked or chatted with her since I was up in Indiana.

She was the one that told me my friend CW was dead. Was pretty histarical. If she ends up reading this or her cousin Crystal please let her know I'm sorry and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Just a bitch to find at times.

I guess there is also a few more things really. What is it about the high of being taken? When is it a bit to much? Wanting to stay at the fevor intensity? I don't know, but those have been popping up. I'm not sure what to totally do though.

I fucked up this blog

2006-08-14T10:18:00.000-05:00

Some how I fucked up this blog. I don't know how I did it. Must have been the coding for the table. So I guess I'm going to either have to find out how to get it solved or just shelve it and say fuck it and get a totally new blog. Probably have to do that. Since this one' fucked up. -sighs- hate this.

UPDATE- So I didn't. For some reason where they have the lists of posts and such it kept coming up as "No Posts" so freaking me out. Finally I went searching for entries named and all. Finally it started working. So now it works.

2006-08-14T10:13:00.000-05:00

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Nothing much

2006-08-14T08:49:00.000-05:00

So I would say that there isn't that much to really post about. Nothing really going on in r/t that is worth posting. Besides to say I'm reading Dune book. It's the one that is the jihad. Talks about the war and such. I haven't read the original's and so figure I'd start here. I don't know could be fun and great.

We had been chatting and talking with a male submissive. Was fun and interesting to play off scenes and get to know him. He's a newbie to the lifestyle. It's hard I think for him because he is in more of a "rush". Yet, alot of the newbies are. Yet, I don't think ever realize never will know all of this and that it's a constant learning experience. Although, I don't think it's ever like when you are first involved and that drastic learning and experience. Even if it's just online.

We'd had two little one's once before. A female and a male. Both, ended badly. In fact the female's really not chatting nor talking to Us anymore. It also I don't think helped that one person we were once friends tried to pull and tug at her and try and get her to not like Us. Gawd, it's amazing what "Grown" up's will do to one another.

I think though that even though it ended pretty badly between us as a group we still want to look for other's to get to know and play with and spend time with. Just that we can not collar or speak of owning at this time. Anyhow, everyone have a good day. Stay out of the heat. I was in the heat all day almost. I had to chop up some limbs and move them to the front of the house for pick up, and get grocieries.

Take care.

2006-08-12T11:56:00.000-05:00

Battlestar Galactica Season 3 Preview (High Quality)

Here is the season 3 preview. Just thought some might like to see it. Definetly keep a look out for those new to the Battlestar series as a wrap up from the mini series through season 2 will be shown.

Battlestar and TV

2006-08-12T11:36:00.000-05:00

I was going through some of the places that have been recorded in the site meter. Seems have had a person from England. That is really cool. Odd to think someone from across the pond would be on here and chatting. Nice just to see where all have been that have viewed my page. Just so everyone knows all the entries are actually on this page. I haven't logged enough posts think for other..and don't think it's taken inventory just yet.

Were suppost to be getting more rain today. I don't know if we will though, or really anymore since we had some this morning. Oh, for those that don't know sometime tomorrow in a NBC owned station and running all this month *On channel's on by NBC* will be a special re-capping for the TV show Battlestar Gallactica. Season 3 starts in October.

The new season actually looks really really awesome. Just so in case don't know this season picks up 6 months later. I don't know if that is really good or really bad but hey lol. Anyhow, here is a lil vid. Enjoy. It's in another post. lol Sorry first time ever did the whole blog video.

Means shall be having new Stargate AND Battlestar. Awesome! lol. While sci-fi and fantasy's not doing well on basic stations..on the extended doing awesome.

Rain!

2006-08-11T17:07:00.000-05:00

There is Rain!!!! Rain is in the area. Gawd I hope it comes this way. It's be sooo nice to have some rain.

I'm pretty tired so this maybe a short post lol. I know that some of the entries have been getting pretty long. Although, hopefully get something still out of them. I'v been going to some of the groups am a part of and hopeing brings in some people. Some of the blog's are actually pretty cool. Some M/s and then some are for Dominant females. Each interesting in own right. I haven't found any that have the whole "I'm male" and or "I'm woman" so am Dominant. Never have fully understood those types. Just because you'r born a sex doesn't mean better then the other.

Yeah the rain is an hour away!!!! Yeah! The weather is on the tv at the moment. Hey here is a question for all the people that fly or have flown. Will you still fly? I'v only been on a plane twice. Was pretty cool really. I'd still fly.